My world is full of colors with different shapes and angles. I learned that one secret to contentment is to never expect anything. God will provide all of my needs. Even those that I haven’t, or simply don’t, recognize. Many people look at me and ask if I am happy with the way things are in my life. And I always say I am. I do not lie. But there are moments when I get this feeling again— this nagging voice at the back of my head, making me act like I would have 10 years ago. I get confused. I get sidetracked. But these butterflies— I learned to appreciate their appearance. They make me believe that I really am not asexual.

Temptation, that’s what you are.

Now the question is: Should I flee or should I indulge?