Freedom from a repressing responsibility after enduring it for so long can make someone feel so light— so liberated— so giddy and yes… so lost.

For almost six months I’ve been skirting through the fact that I’m free from paying my part of the house loan (a family treasure that all of us in the family helped to acquire), free to do what I’ve always wanted to do with my life since I don’t have to worry about not being able to pay on time, worry about causing any burden to my beloved family.

The thing is… what will one do with all this freedom when she stopped thinking about her future when she accepted such big a responsibility even before she graduated college and before she got things figured out for herself?

I couldn’t remember any plans I had before. (And that’s saying something for someone who always liked planning things down) So I did what one should do when she’s confused. I prayed and decided to let God show me what to do. He never failed me so I know He’ll show me what the next best step is.

Then I was asked to organize a tour and was, again, able to feel the satisfaction of bringing beautiful places and experiences near people’s reach.

Then I was given a chance to plan an event and I started to remember how crazily happy I get when I organize affairs that mean something to people.

Then I was given another shot in teaching kids and remember my passion in it. The fulfillment of knowing you’re a part of the great person they will turn out to be in the future.

Then I was given another shot in continuing studies and remembered how I liked learning new things, how I get so "into” heated debates, how I liked fooling around with classmates— talking about everything and anything under the sun.

I realized I was turning into a senile being without noticing it and God gave me a perfect opportunity to avoid it by giving all the means to change.

Now I’m always busy doing researches or lessons or tour packages— or updating my blog. But I still get the time to read (watch out Archangel’s Storm, my hand is so ready to grab you the moment you get release on the market!) to sleep for more than 6 hours and to watch movies.

I plan to start writing again soon. And probably get published? Haha. I wonder what happened to the play I sold years ago. I hope it was taken care of. And I hope to write something good.

God is good beyond comprehension.

When rain pours so hard and you pray for it to stop so you can go wherever you need to go without any trouble, God answers your prayer. In my experience He either:

- Made it stop immediately
- Slowed it down to a drizzle until I could do whatever I needed to do

- Kept it pouring--- because someone, somewhere needs the rain more than I need comfort.

How did He bless you today?