2:29 PM When I Die |
So, since I've decided to go make some major changes in my life (which I will share here later on), I decided to get back to writing here too. I am finally sharing my badly written thoughts some time in 2016, when I had a nightmare about my death. It was actually a very peaceful dream so I cannot fully call it a nightmare. The sad part of it was in my dream, I dreamed of knowing that I am dying soon. I had to prepare gifts and letters to all my loved ones in such a short amount of time. I don't remember all the details of the dream but I remember hurting knowing how much pain I will leave them with when I'm gone. Surprisingly, when I woke up, I remembered all the repressed memories and feelings of my childhood trauma. All the hate, resentment and shame. It was not an easy battle. Thank God that I am here, still kicking in His grace. Thank God for my family and friends who were there to support me. So.... forgive me if I share this rather badly written poem. lol... I don't want to change anything about it. If I die tomorrow I will be glad When I meet the Father in that tomorrow, If I die tomorrow I will be eternally happy To my parents who loved me more than anyone else on this foreign land For that one special love God used to make me anticipate So when I die tomorrow, I want that day celebrated not mourned. - Faye C. (written in 2016, after I dreamt of my death: the first day of my PTSD breakdown) |
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