Letting go. It is one of hardest lessons anyone could ever learn. 

If you cared about something. If you've invested time and effort and emotions. If you spent every waking hours working so hard for it... wouldn't it be understandable how hard it is to give up such a thing for the unknown?

But what if it started to choke you? To hurt you? To make you struggle so hard to survive? When it unknowingly leeched the smile off your eyes? Will it be worth the ache? The tears? The misery?

This place. This condition. Easy as they may seem to others. It's been a place of melancholy. Of stress. Of Unhappiness. I've always been contented with what I had. Seldom did I ever wish for something more. But this state screamed at me to find something else. Something better. Something I won't always stress or worry about. Some place where I could be happy without repercussions. To live life not only with moments of joy but with complete unadulterated happiness.

So I suppose letting go was all that's left to do. God has given me His answer. Now all I need to do is to accept it and trust that His will tramps all others. For the first time in my entire existence, I'll let go of everything. Put it all in God's hands. No Plan Bs. Facing life in total abandon.

Time to stop being scared shitless.

This day, I'll take the first step.