Letting go. It is one of hardest lessons anyone could ever
learn.
If
you cared about something. If you've invested time and effort and emotions. If
you spent every waking hours working so hard for it... wouldn't it be
understandable how hard it is to give up such a thing for the unknown?
But
what if it started to choke you? To hurt you? To make you struggle so hard to
survive? When it unknowingly leeched the smile off your eyes? Will it be worth
the ache? The tears? The misery?
This
place. This condition. Easy as they may seem to others. It's been a place of
melancholy. Of stress. Of Unhappiness. I've always been contented with what I
had. Seldom did I ever wish for something more. But this state screamed at
me to find something else. Something better. Something I won't always stress or
worry about. Some place where I could be happy without repercussions. To
live life not only with moments of joy but with complete unadulterated
happiness.
So I
suppose letting go was all that's left to do. God has given me His answer. Now
all I need to do is to accept it and trust that His will tramps all others. For
the first time in my entire existence, I'll let go of everything. Put it
all in God's hands. No Plan Bs. Facing life in total abandon.
Time
to stop being scared shitless.
This
day, I'll take the first step.