I’m so tired. What did I do wrong this time? Why did it have to
happen again? Why does it have to be this way whenever I start to open-up, to
trust, to feel as if i finally found what I’ve always wanted? Why?
My friend said I shouldn’t blame myself but how can I do that? It
happened several times to pass up as a coincidence. However, no matter how many
times I try to look back I cannot think of a word, a gesture or anything else
that I might have done for it to happen over and over again.
Why can’t my life be a simple one? Why can’t I find that good
friend, a brother that I never had, a companion that will listen to my
questions and opinions and stories that girls may not appreciate– may not
relate to? Why do I always keep my hopes up when I already knew that everything
turns out complicated in the end?
I should have known.
I invite thee fire to consume me
...
Read more »